john mayer's "the heart of life"

I hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears
And listen

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

You know, it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
But, then your circle of friends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good
I know it's good

Mariah Carey's "butterfly"...cheesy i know but i dont really care right now. this song words a lot really well.

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears
inside
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands

Chorus

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Verse

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Chorus

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Bridge

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way
it feels to fly

Chorus

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Imogen Heap's "speeding cars"

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don’t feed me violins, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

Sleeping pills, no sleeping dogs lie never
Far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
i can’t keep on like this
Now is as bad of time as any

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

i love you

so im back in cincy...im glad to see everyone, but i am not ready to switch back into work work work mode. hopefully i can do it healthier this time for the 9 days i have left here before christmas.  i miss my friends way way way too much, however, not my dorm room or the lovely showers.  I cant wait to go back home for Christmas....everyone says how weird home is when you go back for the first time after having been to college..and yeah...some of it was weird..my mom tried to give me a curfew and my parents were sappier, and it was weird in some ways seeing my friends--not all of them, but for the majority it was weird--but i appreciated everthing so much more....i realized how much i love my family and home..it wasnt that i realized what all my parents do for me, it was just that i appreciated it so much more.. im glad im in college, i really really really really am--and it's not that i want to go back in time and live in high school for longer, i just wish christmas break would last for about 3 or 4 months...  in summer everyone is pretty spread out..but christmas everyone is home and it's cold and everything is love oriented and reflecting on how grateful you are for everyone to be together...it's just such an innocent, pure, humbling time...i just.. wish it would last longer...and already im really sad that it will be over way too fast..and it hasnt even started...

im home. this is a totally different kind of happiness...im overwhelmed...and trying my hardest to express 7..not 10... i miss everyone already...overwhelmed...i cant say that enough bc thats what i am...im so so so so so so so so so so so so